Go Away...Unless you love me, then you can stay

Do you know what I find strange? People who complain about something, and don't do anything about it. For example, all those people who complain about radio talk show hosts like Howard Stern or Glen Beck or Dr. Laura. There are really people who hate those radio talk show personalities, and yet they continue to listen to those shows and complain about everything they say, even to the point of sending death threats! I mean, seriously... if something bugs you that much, STOP LISTENING! Change the channel! Listen to someone you LIKE! For heaven sakes! Some people baffle me.

One of the sad things about divorce is that friends often end up choosing sides and feel that have to dislike or hate the "offending" party of the side they chose to defend. This has happened with us and it sucks. I don't like it. Our marriage didn't work out and we may not like each other so much right now, but we haven't really changed as people and we do share children so this kind of thing is really stupid... but it is what it is. So, in light of this, I recently discovered that someone has been reading my blog and taking super offense to just about everything I say, especially the "spiritual" stuff.

I have been struggling with some personal things relating to church. I haven't been attending. I have had some real struggles and do not feel comfortable going, in any way, shape or form. I don't even like going to Scout meetings. These are my feelings and mine alone and I will deal with them in my own time. However, I don't see how this revokes my right to feel spiritual feelings. And I don't see how this wipes out my spiritual or emotional intelligence. Am I to forget the many things I've learned from my many readings of the scriptures? Am I to forget all the things I've learned from conference talks and firesides and things my parents have taught me just because I'm struggling? I would think that a time like this would be the BEST time to remember ALL the things I was taught and try to apply them the best way I know how. But somehow by doing so, I'm labeled a hypocrite or worse.

I have always marched to the beat of my own drum and have never fit into the molds I was supposed to fit into. At the moment I feel a sort of sense of freedom. Not a freedom to go out and commit any sin I choose, but a freedom to reevaluate what it is I want and where it is I want to go. And if that makes anyone angry or hurt or bitter, I am sorry. But this is my life. I will do what is best for my children and what is best for myself. And we will be just fine.

And if my blog is in any way offensive or angers you in any way.... then I have some advice....

GO AWAY!
unless you love me, then you can STAY!